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30 December 2011

Selamat ke Kandang



one to the two to the three little indian for litt-
ok ok
yo yo yoo sup ? supper ? ohohhoo. not yet maaa
baru pkul brapa. awal lagi babe

so di sini beta ingin mengucapkan selamat malam since sudah malam ni
and beta keseorangan di sini sorang sorang sorang. FOREVER ALONE.
oh wadehelll. ok mngarut je suma tu.

okeh, so gua sekarang ada kat hotel laa. hotel murah je
opss silap. hostel. ok hostel gua ni.
semalam kakak gua baru hantar gua pulang ke sini
selepas memakan sate dgan kawan beliau. iaitu, lelaki.
aku terfikir, bila akak aku ni na kawin ? haih -,-
fine fine. soooo, lepas hantar aku balik
aku naik la hostel nii and wallaaaweh, gelap dan sunyi

seperti matamu yang hitam ditelan pekat malam. hm, so sweet niessa, sweet lewww tuwww
yekk yekkk
k, shut up.

aku naik je, takde orang so aku call kawan2 aku,
dorang ckap dorang takde kat hostel finee. finee
so terpaksa laa aku tidur sorang sorang, depan tv, SORANG SORANG , ULANG SORANG. k ?
oteyyy cunnn. tapi nasib baik la ada la jugak kwan ak sorang ni ad kat hostel, tpi blik lain laa
beliau la makhluk tuhan yang baik hati bg aku pinjam laptop beliau
untuk mengisi pagi pagi hari ku

tapi dia tido dalam bilik, aku tidur luar, err perlu ke cakap ? k wadehelll
fineee fineee
and sebenarnya pagi esok aku mngetahui la bhawa makhluk itu adalah manusia,
yupp bukan hantu bukannn
sebab dia pi kija esok, hahahaha. k sekarang ni pon tak pulang2 lgi

so dgn tu aku mmbuat keputusan untuk skype dgn kawan aku, Sema a/p Zaki
hahhahahha. skypeee skypeee ntah papeeee, smpai pkul lima aku tidurr
krohhh kroooh. hm terlepas subuh ngan zohor. tak elok yee
jangan ikut contoh ini. fine aku jahat jahat jahaatttt. blalalalala~

hm hm hm. aku taktau motif aku cerita benda ni sebenarnyee. hmm -,- hmmm -,-
k laa, malam ni aku patut tido awal since Lan ajak aku pi hospital esok
nak pi tengok Komeng, soooo. bye

oh, tadi aku baru tengok cite ni, ye laa slow skitt
tapi best, sebab hero handsome, kakahkahkah, k crite pon best.
eh silap. kena ketawa macam ni, hehehhe, baru comel. bak kata aru laaa.
layannn dopppp. hahaahahahahaha.




24 December 2011

In The Name of Friendship



So yesterday,
i confessed my past to a friend
my past is not something that i would like to remember of
because whenever i opened my story
i hurt

but because he is my friend and a guy who i care about
i end up telling him a honest story
the truth about me and what happened to me back then
and yes. i knew he can't handle it
he just so frustrated

the way he expressed his frustration makes me sad
sad because i thought he is a friend accept me and who i am
but i understood why he do that
because he never believe what people said about me
what people talk bad about me
he just won't eat it
i appreciate he did that
but soon after i told him everything, he frustrated
fine. i get it. i'm not a girl who you should defend of right ?
i'm not that worthy. i acknowledge the fact

my story, i only told this about only to 5 person
and as far as i know, they accept my past as it is.
i realize me is not that worthy for such acceptance
because i do hate myself back then. and even now

1# mandag

told him this and that
he gave me such a very meaningful advice
he was so nice to me
he asked me after some day of my breakup ' are you okay today '
just by that word, i was crying.
i was hopeless back then, and he gave me the spirit to get up
thank you.

2# sam

she had her own past
i bet she understand what i'm going through back then
we both have history ourselves
but it was different kind
me involved someone
and she involved something
even so, i knew that she's better than me
all those advice, thank you.

3# wong

he is my boyfriend
of course i need to tell him
my past, my attitude
he need to know that
and i told him
for God sake, thank you
he accepted me as who i am
even i maybe doubted it little bit
but he never bring that up.
his past
bluntly, he told me everything
the honesty he gave to me
that is important most
and i'm fine with it
i can't change the past
neither mine nor his
thank you sayang.

4# yaya

she know something about me
she asked, i told
she is my friend who i trust so much
just like everyone. she likes me as i am now
no matter what i do, she still with me
thank you.

5# aru

see aru, i told you everything i can
even it's a lie, i knew you just believe it
i don't care how much you mad at me
but you won't know how much me mad at myself
so much
so much that i would take back what i said to you
if only i know the truth hurt you that much, i would lie
but what can i do. i'm just being honest to my friend.
you are my friend
so you need to accept me for who i am
but please, don't make a fool out of yourself again
defend for me. that is the last thing i need from you
just don't
i'm sorry.


mom dad my family. they are the person i need to apologize to
and i just not strong enough to accept the consequences
so i'm just being quiet about this.
this is a secret which i won't tell anybody else anymore
enough of this.
let this secret reveal itself at Padang Masyar.
because i don't wanna lost my friends, even one. NO.




11 December 2011

Wait



we don't know the answer
we don't know what to do
and for me the best medicine to our relationship
is Time.
i know, it is hard to let out the answer
bcoz some just gonna make one hurts
it is fine if you tell me nothing
i will just accepted it
every in and out of you
i accepted it with all my heart
because you see,
i love you so much.

if this silence is what you want.
then i fulfill your wish
because that is all i can do for you here
i know we won't see each other much
but i hope one thing is for sure
i hope you love me as much you love me
when we first been together.

one fine day. when we meet again
trust me. im gonna be a fine great woman
for you. and make you fall in love again. like more.
and i will make you smile :)
i know breakup is not the way,
but tell me someday if that is what you want
i will let you go. for your own good.

but for the time being, i will wait for you.
i will wait for the man that i promise to marry myself to.
a GOOD MAN. thats you.

thats it. I LOVE YOU.


p/s : hey take a good care of my bear tau ! or i'll kill yours. HAHA. kidding darling.




03 December 2011

I Met Them



today. oh wait no, yesterdayyyyy kannnn
wake up at 11am got call from my mom
asking when i will come at her, as we gonna go home TODAY.
so longggggg kualeeee lumporrrrr, daaa daaaa ~
WHATEVER.
so i pack stuff and hit to lrt
vrrooomm vroomm lrt berbunyii
smpai PWTC.
i think about an hour im trying to find this PWTC building..
lol sucksssss mannnn, its hotttt with that bag and that bag aloneeeee
:(

*this indon story sucks and fool

oh iklan sat.
ok then aku jumpa la jgaakkkk.
Puan Sri @ bini MB nak jlan2 kat Mid Valley plakkkk
aku on je la, Folloowwww~

smpai smpai tkedek kedek la situu tngu PS mmbeli emas2 beliau, takpe foloooowwww jer
tiba2,, tuutttt disana kami trnampak Salih Yaacob and Raja Azuraa
SHE IS SOOO SMALLLL
AND PREEETTTTYYYYY. hot

we just look at them walking walking walking ~
after the emas emas buying things done. PS head home
and all of them soooo smilingggg :)
and me toooo :)
bcoz after that we head to a shop and we met SY and RA againn
hoho, man she is beautiful and look young !
lucky us. some point, i get shy standing next to her, uhuk :')

after all the shopping2 done, we head to the hotel
and they went out and im left alone. FOREVER ALONE.
whatever im having fun myself

So here some picture with them. DONT CHU EVER LAUGH.




he was keep busying talking stuff even when pic taken. lawak la uncle ni



yes. i am fat. THANKS ALOT. bye


23 November 2011

For a Man



Dia terlalu sayangkan aku. Itu yang aku sangat pasti. Atas sebab itu aku rasa terlalu selesa kerana aku yakin dia tak kan meninggalkan aku. Dia sanggup mengetepikan kepentingan diri sebab nak menjaga hati aku. Sering aku biarkan dia memujuk dirinya sendiri bila dia merajuk. Buat apa aku nak pening-pening pujuk dia kalau dia sendiri akan kembali padaku dan meminta maaf atas keterlanjuran sikapnya sendiri. Sebarang perselisihan, dia yang akan mengalah dan dia akan menyalahkan dirinya sendiri walaupun jelas memang salahku.

Dia wanita yang rela berkorban apa sahaja kecuali satu, dia tak mahu dirinya disentuh sebelum kami memiliki ikatan yang sah . Dan atas sebab yang satu itu aku rasa dia perempuan yang membosankan. Nak pimpin tangan pun tak boleh. Apatah lagi nak peluk. Ada pun bergesel bahu itu pun sebab aku yang sengaja. Sa

mpai satu tahap aku rasa dia sangat membosankan. Aku cemburu tengok kawan-kawan aku boleh pegang tangan awek diorang. Tapi aku? Bila aku cakap macam tu, dia cuma senyum dan cakap pada aku, “Belum tentu perempuan yang sentuh boyfriend dia tu sayang boyfriend dia lebih dari saya sayang awak… Belum tentu perempuan tu ada masa susah senang boyfriend dia macam saya ada untuk awak…”

Yang nyata, aku langsung tak setuju jawapan dia tu. Aku tengok pasangan lain bahagia, sudah tentu girlfriend kawan-kawan aku sayangkan mereka sebab girlfriend masing-masing membelai kawan-kawan aku dengan penuh kasih sayang. Tapi aku? Jangan harap. Balik-balik jawapan yang sama. Tunggu lepas kahwin. Aku bosan tahu tak! Sampai satu masa aku dah tak tahan lagi. Aku minta kami berpisah. Aku nampak air matanya berlinang tapi sikit pun aku tak rasa kasihan.

“Mungkin kita tak ada jodoh. Awak lelaki yang baik. Awak berhak dapat perempuan yang lebih baik.
Saya nak awak janji dengan saya satu benda, untuk kali terakhir. Satu hari nanti bila awak jatuh cinta dan awak betul-betul sayangkan dia, hargai perempuan tu. Mudah-mudahan perempuan tu akan sayang awak, terima awak seadanya, hormati awak sebagai lelaki dan yang paling penting bahagiakan awak. Saya akan bahagia tengok awak bahagia,” tu kata-kata terakhir dia untuk aku. Dia senyum walaupun air mata berlinang.

Argh! Tak habis-habis nak tunjuk mulia. Bosanlah dengan perempuan macam ni. Malas aku menghadap dia lama-lama. Cepat-cepat aku nak blah dari situ. Tiba-tiba ada bunyi hon dan sedar-sedar aku sudah tersungkur di seberang jalan. Satu dentuman yang kuat bergema dan aku lihat dia terbaring di hadapan sebuah kereta. Dia selamatkan aku! Lelaki yang dah menyakitinya! Darah membuak-buak keluar dari kepalanya. Ambulans datang dan membawa aku dan dia pergi.

Di hospital keadaan kelam kabut. Dia perlu dibedah segera kerana kecederaan teruk di kepala. Ramai kawan-kawan dan keluarganya turut ada sama. Aku tengok seorang wanita yang hampir sebaya ibuku menangis. Mungkin ib
u dia. Mengalirnya air mata seorang ibu kerana aku. Rasa bersalah menimpa aku. Aku dah sakiti dia tapi dia rela berkorban nyawa untuk aku. Aku berdoa semoga dia selamat. Semoga aku sempat meminta maaf. Semoga masih ada ruang dalam hati dia untuk aku. Dia sangat baik. Aku tak mahu kehilangan dia. Dia ikhlas sayangkan aku.

Selepas beberapa jam pembedahan selesai. Dia berada di dalam ICU. Dia koma, tapi doktor kata dia masih mampu mendengar. Tiba-tiba seorang kawannya menghampiri aku. Kawannya menghulurkan sesuatu. “Aku rasa benda ni dia nak bagi pada kau,” hanya itu yang gadis itu ucapkan pada aku. Kawannya terus berlalu selepas itu. Pandangan kawannya pada aku penuh benci. Tahukan kawan dia tentang kejadian sebenar? Yang nyata aku tak pernah mahu berbaik dengan kawan-kawan dia. Pernah juga dia bersuara tentang hal itu tapi aku sekadar buat tak tahu.

Pulang sahaja aku buka bungkusan itu. Pasti hadiah untuk hari lahirku. Hari lahirku dua

minggu lagi. Balutan kertas itu kubuka dan di dalamnya ada botol kaca berbentuk hati. Di dalam botol itu penuh dengan origami berbentuk bintang. Ada kad kecil berwarna biru kegemaranku. Aku sebak membaca bait-bait dalam kad itu.

“Dalam origami bintang ni ada kata-kata saya untuk awak. Awak buka setiap hari SATU sahaja. Mungkin saya tak dapat nak hubungi awak setiap hari sebab kesibukan kerja. Tapi, bila awak baca setiap hari, anggaplah setiap hari saya berhubung dengan awak. Saya nak awak tahu setiap masa awak ada dalam hati saya. Happy Birthday sayang…”


Aku buka botol kaca berbentuk hati itu dan kuambil satu bintang. Kubuka origami itu dan di dalamnya tertulis, “Love is like a poisonous mushroom. You don’t know if it is the real thing until it is too late..” Aku tersenyum sendiri. Aku buka lagi bintang yang seterusnya. Walaupun dia meletakkan syarat satu hari cuma satu. Di dalam semua
origami itu penuh kata-kata semangatnya untuk aku dan suara cintanya yang ikhlas. Demi Allah, sepanjang aku bergelar lelaki dewasa, inilah pertama kali aku menangis semahunya. Air mata aku tak berhenti mengalir sepanjang membaca kata-kata dalam origami itu sehingga habis semuanya kubaca. Aku telah menyakiti seorang wanita yang luhur.

Aku melawatnya di hospital. Walaupun mukanya penuh calar, bibirnya pucat dan kepalanya berbalut, dia tetap cantik di mata aku. Dia bukanlah wanita yang memerlukan make up tebal kerana dia memiliki kecantikan asli. Atas sebab itu aku menghalangnya terlalu rapat dengan mana-mana lelaki kerana gusar jika ada yang tertarik. Dia sekadar menurut. Demi menjaga hati aku. Aku capai tangannya yang berselirat dengan pelbagai wayar yang aku pun tak tahu. Sejuk tapi betapa lembutnya tangannya. Pertama kali aku menyentuhnya.

Aku bisikkan ketelinganya, “Sayang..saya datang… Cepatlah sedar. Saya rindukan awak. Saya banyak bersalah pada awak. Saya minta maaf,” pertama kali aku minta maaf darinya. Tiba-tiba denyutan nadinya jadi tidak menentu. Aku panic.

“Hei, apa yang kau dah buat pada dia? Tak cukup kau sakiti kawan aku?” jerkahan kawannya mengejutkan aku. Doktor dan beberapa jururawat bergegas masuk dan aku diminta keluar.

Setiap hari aku berdoa supaya dia cepat sembuh, cepat sedar. Aku gusar sekiranya Allah mengambil n
yawanya. Bukan aku tidak redha dengan ketentuan, aku sedar aku masih perlukan dia. Aku sayangkan dia. Genap dua minggu, aku mendapat berita dia sudah sedar. Aku bersyukur. Inilah hadiah hari lahir yang paling bermakna untuk aku. Dia juga sudah dipindahkan ke wad biasa. Aku mahu melawat dia. Aku rindu senyuman dia.

Aku mendapat panggilan telefon yang meminta aku mengambil tempahan. Namun kerana
terlalu gelojoh, aku terlanggar botol kaca bentuk hati pemberian dia. Ah, semuanya akan aku uruskan nanti. Aku biarkan serpihan kaca bertaburan di lantai.

Tak sangka dia menempah kek khas untuk aku. Dia atas kek itu tertera bahagian belakang jersi pasukan bola sepak kegemaranku, Arsenal berserta namaku dan nombor kegemaranku. Aku senyum sendiri. Bahagianya aku.

“Abang bertuah. Girlfriend abang cakap dia tak tahu apa-apa fasal bola. Dia cuma tahu pasukan apa yang abang minat dan nombor yang abang suka. Sebab tu dia tempah kek ni khas untuk abang dan minta abang ambil sebab dia nak buat surprise. Dia cakap dia nak makan kek ni dengan abang. Kakak tu cantik, baik pulak tu. Abang kirim salam pada akak ya? Abang jaga akak tu elok-elok,” ramah gadis yang bekerja sebagai juruwang di kedai itu memberitahuku. Aku senyum sepanjang jalan ke hospital.

Sampai di hospital aku lihat dia sedang duduk di atas katil. Tiada sesiapa bersamanya

. Dia sekadar termenung. Aku senyum padanya. Dia seakan terkejut melihat aku datang. Aku terfikir juga, boleh ke orang sakit makan kek? Tapi kan dia nak makan kek ni dengan aku.

“Sayang.. terima kasih kek ni. Saya happy sangat awak dah sedar. Adik cashier kedai tu kirim salam pada awak. Dia cakap awak nak makan kek ni dengan saya. Saya suapkan ya?” aku suakan sudu pada dia. Tapi sesuatu yang aku tak pernah duga, dia tepis tangan aku sampai sudu terpelanting ke lantai. Dia tak pernah kasar dengan aku. Dia selalu melayan aku dengan lembut. Aku pernah cuba pegang tangan dia pun dia tolak dengan baik. Mungkin dia terlalu terluka dengan aku.

“Baliklah. Saya makin sakit tengok awak. Bawak balik kek tu sekali. Saya tak nak tengok apa-apa berkaitan awak lagi,” pantas dia menarik selimut menutup muka. Aku terkedu sendiri. Dia tak mahu pandang aku lagi. Hati dia dah tertutup untuk aku. Dia tak pernah macam ni.

Selang beberapa hari, aku datang lagi tapi katil dia sudah kosong. Aku risau jika apa-apa yang buruk berlaku padanya. Dari jururawat aku tahu dia sudah dibenarkan pulang kerana keadaanya sudah stabil. Tapi yang mebuatkan jantung aku hampir gugur bila jururawat itu memberitahu dia masih menjalani rawatan susulan dan terapi kerana dia lumpuh. Dia lumpuh kerana aku!

Itu semua tiga tahun yang lalu. Sejak kejadian tu aku tak pernah jumpa dia lagi. Tahu apa-apa khabar berita pun tidak kerana aku memang tak pernah nak berbaik dengan kawan-kawannya. Walaupun sudah tiga tahun tapi aku masih merinduinya. Aku tak jumpa wanita yang mampu menyayangi aku lebih dari dia. Ah, panjangnya menung aku sampai nasi di hadapan mata sudah hampir dingin.


Baru aku hendak menyuap makanan ke dalam mulut, mataku terpaku pada satu wajah yang duduk selang beberapa meja dari aku. Dia? Aku pasti tu dia. Senyum dia masih sama. Tapi keadaan tidak lagi serupa. Dia sedang makan bersama lelaki lain. Sesekali aku lihat dia mengusap perutnya. Dia mengandung. Maknanya dia sudah kahwin. Dan aku lihat lelaki yang juga makan di sebelahnya mengusap-usap tangan dia. Pasti itu suaminya. Dan aku sedar aku tak setanding suaminya sebab lelaki itu kelihatan lebih serba-serbi dari aku. Air mataku rasa ingin mengalir. Senyuman mahal milik dia yang dulu cuma untuk aku kini khas buat lelaki lain.

Suaminya lelaki bertuah. Itu aku tak nafikan. Cuma suaminya yang dapat menyentuhnya. Cuma suaminya yang dapat melihat apa yang terlindung. Dan aku sangat pasti, cuma suaminya yang mendapat takhta paling agung dalam hatinya yang suci.


Dia seperti botol kaca berbentuk hati yang pernah diberikan padaku dulu. Botol itu sudah pecah, namun aku sudah ganti dengan yang baru. Yang sama tapi tak serupa. Botol yang lama dipilih oleh dia dan yang baru dipilih oleh aku. Walapun aku masih menyimpan serpihan kaca botol itu, bentuknya tak lagi sama macam dulu. Dan sangat mustahil untuk kembali seperti dulu.

Pesanan buat semua lelaki, hargailah wanita yang menyayangi kamu. Jangan jadi macam aku. Matanya sangat cantik tapi aku selalu biarkan dia mengalirkan air mata dengan perbuatanku. Hidungnya yang kecil dan comel selalu aku sesakkan dengan asap rokokku walaupun aku tahu dia tak suka dan asap rokok boleh buat dia sakit kepala. Bibirnya sangat indah tapi aku selalu biarkan bibir itu tersenyum paksa kerana mangalah dengan setiap kemahuanku. Telinganya aku tak pernah nampak, terlindung, tapi telinga itu sering aku biarkan menerim
a segala marahku. Hatinya sangat lembut, dan aku selalu toreh dengan belati tajam dan aku biarkan dia merawat sendiri luka itu.


Akhirnya, aku hanyalah lelaki ego yang tak memiliki apa-apa kerana dia sudah dimiliki orang lain.




05 November 2011

Tokki

just ready to get a bath, a step out from the room, heard Kak Ayu said ' ayah takde doh'
that 'ayah' its my atuk- tokki

tokki went back to rahmatullah. Al Fatihah.
he gone on friday 4/11/2011
if God love him, than let him go.
let just pray for him

me family and everyone rushing to the hospital
me got there. the nurse close the bed with the curtain.
they already wipe him, wrap him

then, watching all those stuff when a close one to you die
no its not amusing. every time i think it im crying, so do now
by the time i kiss his forehead, man why do i crying so much
im trying hard not to show my tears to everyone. but still

i look at him, not moving, cold
but one thing for sure, he is smiling
yes he smile.

everything that day, Alhamdulillah. went well
arwah tokki was save buried. May God bless him. Amin

Al-Fatihah.



Way Back Home

here it goes. that fine wednesday got a call from my brother. asking to pack things and come back home.

my sister call again, said she's coming to get me. i told her im gonna take an exam tomorrow.

so she came to the hostel and pick me up. we went to the college, settling the exam, im trying to postpone it.

damn im mad. the thing is , lunch hour suppose to be end at 2 0clock right ? there we sit there waiting for the officer about an hour, they not coming in .

where the hell they go at time like this, tired of waiting, my sister went to the front desk and asking something. settling something. i had to get a permission from the dean. which is he-think-we-dont-know-that-we-had-to-give-evidence.

damn, what the hell is going on with the college's system ?

ok whatever. done those exam stuff we head back. ok this is funny. suppose from kl to kemaman will about 4-5 hours, wow my sister like a pro, she takes 2 and 30 minutes to get there. how the hell did she drive so fast ?




03 November 2011

A troll

hello yeah. im home.
WOHOOO but with a bad news. Datuk sakit
Wishing and pray that he will get well :(
he is the only grandfather to me right now

so, i went home not telling anybody even my friends.
IM SORRY GUYS im rushing andd you guys sleepingg.
HAHA sleepyhead. just like anje. ANJE ? eiuu.
eh ? apehal ? suka hati la na pnggil ape pon.

Oh, talking about him.
i found a picture.
a BEAUTIFUL picture of him
HOHO. anje, dont get mad at me when you found this
omaigod. he is soo handsome. aww aww

nah. take a look


oh. what a lovely face you got there my sweetheart :)




28 October 2011

The heart

my heart, its beating
missing you, day and night
sunrise and im sleeping
woke up, thinking of you
man, i want to think more of my mom
but your face come across my mind
my phone, im waiting your text
none. its okay. im gonna use to it
what are you doing ? far away from here.
are you ever thinking of me ?
i hope so.
damn, i really missing you right now.
are you happy my dear ? i wish so.
when im gone, please remember me.
when i die, pray for me my dear.
and always keep in mind, I LOVE YOU



25 October 2011

The end ?

5 months ?
OHMYGOD. is it really 5 months?
damn, time flew fast.
the memories, yet colouring my days. now and after.
i wish to look back one some day with the same person.
we walk, laugh, mad together.
dont leave, please.

exam. WOW. exam come ahead.
damn, i hate it.
study, i hate it.
books, i hate it.
but they love me.
they call me everyday, night
they show themselves to me.
sorry for dissapoint u guys. i love u all too. ketat2.
HAHA. bongok. suka sorang

my dear friends,
wish u all a well good luck.
lets meet again one day.
with wife/husband.
with daughter, son, grandaughter, grandson.
HOHO. i want to get marry.

yes. no motive at all.
oh, what the hell. i love u guys :)




24 August 2011

Thank You :)



my love, thank you for being with me when i need you

my love, thank you for choosing me

my love, thank you for not letting me go

my love, thank you for holding my hand tight

my love, thank you for showing off your love for me

my love, than you for let me feel the feeling of love again

my love, thank you for missing me

my love, thank you for loving me

my love, thank you for lending your shoulder when im crying

my love, thank you for taking care of me

my love, thank you for accepting all my witty behaviour

my love, thank you for letting me punch and pinch you in the face

my love, thank you for hugging me

my love, thank you for accompany me

my love, thank you for be right next to me

my love, thank you for be there when my heart was shatter back then



my Wong Wong <3 thank you so much for loving me as i am :)


I LOVE YOU SO MUCH WONG WONG <3

04 August 2011

A Real Let Go ?

just now. watching a new relationship of you, still make my heart go twist negatively.

this is sad, how you can lie, manipulated and showing no act at all. you are the best.
the best actor.

and what the thing that hurt me the most is. i am the only one who got so caught up with you while you looking for another.

it is freaking annoyed me that i still love you this much and hurt because of you. you just doesn't deserve this.

but. can i really let you go? for real? please, someone. take my heart away. make it happy

i just wish that the day that i can really let go this broken me come to me. quick





28 July 2011

What KPTM gave me :)


its been about 1 month and a day for me studying here, the new environment and people. colourful, fun, exciting everyday, hyperactive and so many things that i cant describe in words.

it was awesommmeee. my classmates is a big happy family :)) which i can always be proud of. everyday, everytime, everysecond i love you all

we have this big relationship among us, we have the chemistry. u know, right now,
i cant stop smiling all the time thinking about my classmates who veryyy awesomeeeee.

friends, thank you for being with me when i need you and when i dont. guys, you were the best thing happened to me since my failure. so, this is little bit of them :))))<<----superhappy


al, sue, yaya, myself, bai and joan - heading to wangsa maju


tiger can be tame too, people. believe it


yaya keep complaining about her picture. haiyoo


yaya lost her hairclip here, this is the proof of her nyanyok :D


we were kenyanggggg with foood, the weird al face


this is joan :) the Sabah girl


gegirl or wong wong. if u notice, he had the Mr. bean sock


they are human. they like gossip


so much for introduce this people.



05 June 2011

Vote for the boy and dear

hm hm hm

cuti panjang ni kita buat apa ya?

tnggu anak ayam beranak?

tggu ikan paus hembus tahik hidung? kotor main la kau

main rebut remote control dgn adik? kalau tak dpt pukul beliau? maybe

caci maki blog org? aku tak buat okeyyyh. plisss. eww ewww

pergi rmh org semata2 nk tgok tandas?

kejadah haram ko

bnyak sgt aktiviti cik niessa cuti sekolah ni

walaupun beliau dah lama habis sekolah. beliau masih sayangkan kucing beliau.

ye. x berkaitan. cik niessa baru saja balik dri tingok movie tadi. crita karak.

hm hm hm. amat x brapa takut. xshuke xshuke! eiiuuu~ gedik lah kau minah

oh. amat lambat lagi ye beliau nak masuk belajar. dah gatal galop dah ni nk gi

lambat nyerrr lambatnyerrr. HAHA. oh tringt bnda agak2 sweet tadi

slpas beliau tingok movie tadi. beliau berjalan lembut2 dgn ibu beliau keluar dri panggung

then ibu beliau mngatakan begini :



umie : ce tingok tu.

beliau : nape?

umie : tu. pakwe bawak handbag makwe

beliau pon tengok la dgn muka malas.

beliau : OH. (dalam hati: Sweeeeeeettttieeee nyeeerrr kamu boifren. )

umie : suka dop kalau pakwe bawak handbag?

beliau : SUKA! tapi xdop pakwe umie =_='

umie : senyum and masih tingok2 couple tersebut sambil berjalan dgn heart heart


ohhh umie. jikalah kau tau betapa susahnya nk jumpa lelaki seperti itu... 0ne in million umie..


....................................................................................................................................................................


hm. boring. cuti yg mmnjngkan ni boring. boring. kehidupan beliau amat la boring. BORING.


oh before this i call my dear and cakap cakap. bla bla bla . trkeluar lah bhawa bliau ada kat uitm shah alam. apa yg dear ak buat kat sana?

he said bla bla bla main bola tampar sukma bla bla bla. and aku? oh, dah start ke?

cam haram langsung x amik tahu hal sukan. so i just wish the best for him of course. aja aja fight! fight! haiiiyakkk---


kbaii. oh, vote for my dear yg sedang mewakili terengganu dalam acara bola tampar pantai SUKMA ya. :)) TERENGGANU BOLEH!



19 May 2011

Churp Churp


Lets race guys! Jom lumba2. Lumba ape? Churp Churp la!


Oh. While i was hangout with my buddy - Mr. Computer

My brother pm me and said, lets join the churp churp

and i was like. what? wth was that?

imitiating of twitter or something like that?

Oh. its not. Churp Churp is like nuffnang.

The more time we spend in front of the computer, the more we get

get what? Money la der..

So. i would like to ask for your generous side in heart to click the link

Pretty please.. :)


12 May 2011

Loneliness


and now, i felt alone again

and this is the time

when i make the biggest mistake in life


which im not proud at all

i hurt myself, i hurt my own feeling

and i blame my heart for being this hurt

i even want to be a bad person

im sorry

my heart doesnt deserve my bad side


but, it's the only thing i've

for keeping me real in this world

but i just dont get it

why should i suffer this alone?

why should me that getting hurts all the time


why not the other one

is it my sincerely intention going wrong?

yes. i do miss the old time

i miss them until i broken into tears

i cried alone

even the love is wrong or a lie

i miss them

i miss them so much

my heart is crying for happiness

my heart deserve to be happy

i lock it


i lock it so no one can ever take it from me


no one can hurt it just the way he did

there's only one reason

why i can't bring myself to hate him

its because i love him more than i should



Cik Niessa rindu giler! :)

10 May 2011

Bengang Tersimpan



haduihh!!

mmg x lrat dh than mrah

hari ni, mcm2 ak da maki kat org yg x brsalah

aku MINTAK MAAF sgt!

sy MINTAK MAAF sgt!

niessa MINTAK MAAF sgt!


ni psal kau la ni! kau!

pkwe ak knon

cih! cam siot!

pe hal lu bro?

nipu2 gini

xdop kije ke?

adehhh! pedih2!!

biar la pristiwa tu da lama

tp jgn ingt aku lupa la apa yg kau da buat

eh, kalau la nk diikutkn hati ni yg pnas mmbara dan dendam

mmg aku dah lama buka tembelang kau kat si manis tu

tapi, yelah

ak bkn kejam sgt mcm kau ckp

smpai nk wk hancurkan hbngan kau dgn si manis tu

dah kau BODOH, kau sndri yg ngaku

aku okey je klau kau nk cop kau ni mnusia jnis apa

aku sruh lpas xnk

syg KONON!

bla la woi!

haha, kau ni mmg pencinta wanita la

aku tau dan aku mngaku yang aku bkn pompuan baik

ak ni pun byk klemhan nya

mmg bnyk!

tapi, cuba kau pkir,

klau nk dbndingkn sakit hati aku dan sakit hati kau

yg slalu kau ckp tu

yg mne lg satu sakit?

alahh.. kau mcm la tau

kle kau tau, kau x buat mcm ni

SENGAL!

tp tu tak brmakna kau bleh ssuka hati jer

serve and digging hati aku ni mcm kau main bola tu

kau ckp psal hak?

hadeh~ hak apa?

hak perkotak katikkan ksetiaan aku kat kau?

aisehmen, ak pegi ckp dgn kwn laki aku

kau mrh

kononnya x suke ak lpak dgn org laki

okey. aku trima wlaupun x msuk logik akal

ak try la jga hati kau

tapi tgoklah apa kau buat

kau buat mcm aku ni mainan kau je.

mmg aku tabik la kau!

SIYES! SUMPAH!

sbb kau, aku bleh tau thap ksabaran aku kat mana

and aku btrima kasih byk! la kat kau!

klau kau sudi lah lpaskan aku

dari hbngan yg kacau bilau ni

wlaupun kau ckp aku bleh pegi MAMPOS?, BODOH?, and tampar aku cam sial

tapi xpe, aku x bnci kau

sbb aku mmg sush nk bnci org, okey?

dlm dunia ni cume 2 org jer aku xleh buang rse bnci ak

and tu, aku dan Allah je yg tau siapa

and ak mmg ada reason yg hak dan btol tuk mbeci org2 trsebut

tapi kau?

xpe. aku redha n trima je smua

maybe ada hkmah nya

xpe, kau pergi je

ak boleh hidup tnpa kau

aku boleh bngkit tnpa kau

siyes!

so-called pkwe,

entry ni bkn nk mngutuk kau sgt laa

tp cuma nk sdrkan kau lah yg pompuan ni

bkn mainan kau

ak x hrap la kau kna mainkan jugak

tp klau lah terkena kat btg hidung sndri tu

ak hrap kau fham lah apa yg aku rse

;)

to kawan2 yg bg moral support,

sungguh! x dpt aku bls

cuma ucpan TERIMA KASIH je la sbg tanda pnghargaan drp aku :)





i love u my frens. muah muah :)



09 May 2011

First Love

its you.

the one who let me enter this world

the one who carried me everywhere for 9 months. hardly

the one who sang the lullaby for me

the one who love me more than self

the one who keep my heart in peace

the one who take care my heart more than anyone


the one who always smile for my jokes

the one who i miss so much


the one who i always want to hug

the one who i always want to be with

i miss u


i love u

Happy Mother's Day

MOTHER

this is only thing i can do for u






if only, i can brave myself to hug you

even for a second without me crying and overflowed with your warm hug

every single second

i wish i can hug you
and tell you everything i wish i had told u before

but, even i dont tell u this

everytime i see ur face


MOTHER


i LOVE u

and for me, this word describe everything about you



entry agak2 lambat dsebabkan ketiadaan kmudahan. SORY umie :)